That Social Regard

I would tear at my innards

If I cared about you.

I would writhe and squirm

With the thought of us.

I wait for you

Like I wait for myself.

Chat chat chat chat

With that silly speed.

I'll be the one to do it

To tell you that I'll die.

To wait until we were different

Or until we were the same.

Because I believe

That we could be the same.

We could become one another

If we were willing to be ourselves.

If this fear didn't choke

Every attempt I made

At being scared scared scared

For every world within this Earth.

Vomit vomit vomit

For all of our sake.

Purge myself for you

Because I'm afraid I don't know how.

Grow old and die!

Quicker quicker!

I can't wait for all that death!

I can't wait to go away!

I must shut down

If I am to open up.

The idea to escape ideas.

The word to destroy words.

If I don't expect anything from you,

Know that I really love you.

If I expect everything from myself,

It's because I want it all.

I want all the gold.

I want all the money.

I want all the love.

I want all that savage affirmation.

If I shout at you,

Know that you've stirred me.

Know that I hate your plastic cards.

Know that I loathe my synthetic/organic nature.